Awakening Castle Hill… Awakening Self

Sue’s Perspective

THE CALL

From the moment Natacha and I chose to go to Castle Hill, many energies came into play that made us realise we were to put out an invitation for others to join us. Eleven people from around New Zealand also felt the call and responded almost immediately.

For the several weeks before our physical journey began, the energetic journey was well under way. Information on a human and divine level came to us constantly through books, channelled art, toning/songs from Waitaha and conscious inner self-awareness.

The core of the information was that it was time to release separation on all levels (masculine and feminine, light and dark etc.), accept all things as they are and embrace self-love in the now moment. Through the total acceptance of self and all things, one comes into the new consciousness and creates the new energy by which they manifest their grander choices. It’s the vibration of the new consciousness that resonates with the energy of Castle Hill and creates an unlocking effect that allows the portal of higher learning that is embodied in the stone structures to flow forth. This energy was placed within this space at the time of creation by us for us. We knew we would open it at the appropriate time, the time when our levels of consciousness, the key, matched the levels required to ‘open the lock’ to shift humanity and the 3^rd dimensional world into the 5^th dimension.

When people open portals it’s usual to close them again behind them, however in this case, it’s time for the portal at Castle Hill to now stay open. This stream of energy flowing across the world will touch each person and wait patiently for each to feel it, embrace it and activate it as they each awaken and step into their enlightenment.

THE JOURNEY

Our physical journey began on Friday 8^th of November 2013. Natacha and I arrived early morning at the Wellington Airport to catch our flight to Castle Hill. Soon after we arrived, we realised all flights were delayed due to heavy fog. I chose not to be caught or play in such potentials as we were committed to our journey. We breathed and allowed. The fog cleared just long enough for the circling plane to land and take off again with us on it.

On arrival at Christchurch we met up with 3 others who had flown from Auckland and Hamilton. Soon after, we began receiving calls that the other 8 members were fogged in at Wellington and flights were cancelled for the rest of the day. After several phone calls, the 8 managed to get in contact with each other (most hadn’t met prior to this journey) and re-organise themselves. Four stayed at the airport on standby and by late afternoon created flights. The other 4 chose to wait until morning.

It was interesting to feel the energies all starting to come together and intensify as each group gradually arrived at Castle Hill. The first weary 4 came in late on the Friday evening and the final 4 arrived at midday on the Saturday. We all finally came together quite intuitively on the Saturday (as there was no mobile signal) at the area known as ‘The Marae’ (the meeting place).

It was wonderful to hear all their stories of how the fog had opened them up in various ways to grander personal awareness and that there were no feelings of frustration or ‘too hard’… just acceptance and allowing their higher choice to manifest.  I felt very honoured to be in the company of such remarkable people. Each person found something within themselves to assist them through this challenge

EXPERIENCING CASTLE HILL

As I mentioned before, our sharing with Castle Hill began when we first made the choice to be there. That sharing intensified greatly as we drove towards our destination and physically saw for the first time in the distance, the unique stone monoliths standing proudly along the ridge of Castle Hill. My  heart leapt as I felt my energies rise, lighten and intensify all at the same time.

We parked the car and excitedly headed up the path towards the energetically carved sculptures. Two beautiful trees stood proudly by the path. They resembled Guardians. As I approached the first one, I was stopped by the presence and asked why I was there. I honoured the guardians and replied that I was on a journey of the heart… they were satisfied and I felt their welcome wash over me. I was then asked why the others were there and I replied they would have to ask them. I felt a playful energy run through me.

I’m not sure it would be possible to share through words all that was experienced over the 3 days at Castle Hill. The intense feelings of peace, comfort, belonging and joy were very obvious to us all. I felt very nurtured and centred within myself. We were also very aware that we were surrounded and guided by spirit at every turn. Each rock and boulder that we sat next to, laid on and shared with seemed to have its own unique vibration and story to impart. There were totems to guide us and images to spark our imaginations and awareness at each turn. One rock had grasses growing on it in the shape of my golden pendant that I had made especially for me a few years ago to signify balance. There was a formation that resembled Quan Yin where I experienced such a depth of self-love and compassion. There were sticks and rock formations in the shape of snakes and serpents that caught my eye constantly, a symbol close to my heart. I found it delightful that when I actually found a large heart shaped rock to lay on and when I looked around, it was next to a large, long rock shaped as a serpent. We shared a great deal on awakening and transformation.

Even the passing cloud formations seem to be sharing stories and potentials with us as the sun and the wind shaped then and gave them added dimensions. Every experience was enhanced even more by the constant and delightful song of the Sky Lark. As it flew high into the air in full song you could feel the shift of energies spiralling around it and within self as it led you from one experience/awakening to another.

While the lower areas of Castle Hill, held so much to experience and were relatively easy to climb around, it was the formations up the hillside and across the ridge that called to many of us very strongly. The area along the ridge is said to be the place of higher learning and when one felt ready they would make that journey. The climb was steep and demanding. At regular intervals there were large stones which emanated various energies that could be tapped into. In a way they resembled chakras and our journey took us from the base chakra to the crown chakras and the expanded knowledge. Each of these chakra stones offered a specific energy and rest spot for you to reflect on your climb in the quest for higher learning.  

While I felt various energies and minor shifts from the various rocks on our climb, it was the heart chakra stone that had the greatest affect. As soon as I sat down next to it, I felt my heart pounding beyond the intensity from the climb. It was a penetrating and very physical feeling which was extremely uncomfortable. After about 10 minutes of breathing, the sensation lessened and I realised I’d had a heart opening. It was like spiritual surgery that opened and strengthened my heart on all levels.  

Once we reached the ridge, the energy changed again. For me it was like breathing in in a whole new way. The tiredness of the climb fell away as I took everything in. The view in all directions was so beautiful, but it’s not what had my attention. Actually I’m not sure anything did… it was more like I was just a part of the whole space… of everything. Nothing was individual or separate. I remembered back to what spirit had said the underlying motivation of this journey was before we left… it was to release the separation and to embrace acceptance of all things.

In a way, walking around and feeling into and sharing with all the rocks on the ridge of castle Hill was like coming Home… the journey back to self… remembering the truth of self.

The higher learning that was there to be accepted/opened is the acceptance of the truth of you. Once you accept self, you can then accept all things and all peoples as they are. It’s in the release of separation and judgement and through the acceptance of all things that balance comes to all of Creation. As that balance is felt, you and All That Is expand into the new consciousness.

THE JOURNEY CONTINUES WITHIN

It’s been 3 weeks since we left Castle Hill. I’ve not written about the trip until now because the experience is still creating shifts within and grand changes are flowing into my life on all levels. I’m very consciously aware that a much deeper, clearer ‘knowing’ has awakened within me. I’ve always been one to consciously expand myself and release limitations as they appear… but what I feel now is so much deeper. My senses both human and divine have expanded and when I breathe I truly feel all things are open to me with no limitation, I truly feel that I AM THAT IAM.

The Soul and the Human

This morning was a glorious, sunny winters day and I felt the deep inner desire to go for a walk and breathe with myself. Sometimes I get a bit slack with my conscious breathing as life is filled with so much to experience.  A sure sign I need to slow down and be with self is feeling soreness in my knees… they say ‘Slow down and be with self’… finally I listened.

When I breathed into where I would wander, I immediately felt it would be Zealandia. Zealandia is an amazing wildlife sanctuary just 5 minutes’ drive from my home where you can see some of New Zealand's rarest birds, reptiles and insects living wild in their natural environment.

I sat on a small wooden bridge the rainforest section of the valley. My feet dangled just inches from the clear bubbling stream.  I was surrounded by tree ferns and a variety of smaller ferns and soft moss and lichen. The trees above were filled with birds singing and flitting around catching insects. Their songs complimented the bubbling stream. The only other sound I was aware of was my conscious breath. This is my most favourite of all spaces to be in and I’m so over joyed I created it in my life.

As I breathed, I felt such peace. I felt so connected to myself… so much so that I became very conscious of a conversation going on between my soul self and my human self. My soul, in all it’s playfulness and little or no understanding of human needs or comforts, wanted to jump into the stream and follow it on it’s journey. My human self was much more ‘sensible’ and reserved.

“You don’t know what cold is do you?” said my human self. “No way are you getting me in that freezing water. I’d have to walk all the way back to the car dripping wet!”

I could feel my soul wanting the experience so much that I nearly leapt in, yet the human stood it’s ground.

Then soul looked through the ferns and saw the tall trees. It wanted to climb them.

“Do you know how difficult and exhausting it would be to climb those old pine trees? There are no lower branches to start with.” said the human self.

I found the conversations amusing. The soul was like the fearless child and the human was the fear burdened parent.

The soul soon lost interest in the trees, not because of the practical human self, but because its attention had shifted to the birds… to flying!

Interestingly, the human self had no qualms about flying and put up no argument. It too would love the experience. When I’ve had flying dreams in the past, I was always upset when I woke and realised it wasn’t real… it felt soooo real.

As a compromise, soul and human agreed to imagine the experience together. It was so beautiful! A true blending of soul and human self’s such as I’ve never consciously experienced before. I could feel the sensation of flight. It was even more real than my dreams.  I could also feel a deeper shift and self-acceptance and self-awareness. I could feel the unconditional self-love on so many more levels.

Eventually, I came ‘back’ from my experience and I wandered a little further upstream still feeling the joy of my flight. I came across another small bridge. I breathed into my core and into my joy. I then found myself feeling into the past 2 weeks. Something had happened that had brought me more into myself. Something had happened that had deepened my love for Natacha. Something had happened that had caused me to embrace my expanded family even more. Something had happened that had me more deeply aware of my journey of choice. Something had happened that had me falling deeper into love and gratitude of all things…

Just as I was feeling into all this ‘something’… it struck me… the earthquakes! The reason so much has changed is due to all the releasing energies coming up from Gaia... not just releasing the stuck energies but more awesomely, she was releasing all the new consciousness energy that had been stored away from the beginning of time just waiting for humanity to reach this time of new expanded consciousness. It’s been 13 days since the first quake. We’ve been getting on average around 30 a day in varying degrees since then. They’re all centred in the Cook Straight where Natacha and I know the 'Heart' of New Zealand resides and it’s only 10-20 kms from us in Wellington. Wellington is the capital of NZ and the governing centre of the land. If there’s stuff to be released and changed, the country's capital is a good place to do it.

These earthquakes are creating such amazing shifts on so many levels and they are occurring with very little damage even from the big ones. We know this shift can be graceful and gentle. Nothing needs to be destructive any more. Ease and grace is the way in this new consciousness.

With so much shaking, nothing feels solid or ridged anymore... it's all becoming flexible... within Gaia and within self.  It's all quite exciting when you relate how the earth changes are affected by you and how the earth changes affect you... an amazing dance of energies heralding a new change of consciousness, of energy and all that is.

Soon after this awareness came up, the little bridge I was standing on began to move and shake under my feet. I could feel the energy of yet another earthquake... it was a strong one, 4.9, yet it had a gentleness about it. It was almost as if it was acknowledging my new awareness. It’s amazing how something like an earthquake which usually ignites fear into the human, is seen as a gift when the soul and the human blend and dance with self-acceptance.

Today is a wonderful day.

By Sue Norman

   Journey into Self: New Zealand ‘Quake’ Meditation 

This meditation was created to assist awareness of this land and its relationship to the self as we are experiencing huge and wonderful shifts together at this time of the new consciousness and new energy integration and expansion.

Since sharing this meditation in our group last night, for the first time in 7 days of continual quake activity (every 10 minutes for most of the past days) today has had very few minor readings and none now for the past 6 hours.

In this visualization we liken the journey of travelling up and down NZ to a journey up and down our own physical self…. chakra to chakra. We also recognise our state of separation which we know as the masculine/feminine, yin/yang, positive/negative, duality in the land and in the self.

I invite you to breathe… breathe long, lovingly and deeply into your belly… into your core… allow yourself to slowly meld and melt into self.

We begin our journey at the furthest point in the North Island… at Cape Reinga… Imagine yourself at the Cape… the crown chakra of NZ, while at the same time feeling it in your own crown…

Slowly we move south to Lake Taupo… this area is seen/ felt as the country’s throat chakra… an energy centre of communication… a volcanic and thermal lake…. I invite you to feel this space in your own throat… feel the activity… feel your voice and truth come forth.

Continuing our walk, we wander down to the bottom of the South Island and into the heart centre in the middle of the Cook Straight…  still breathing and feeling the journey in our own physical bodies.

Take another deep conscious breath… while part of our energies stay in the Heart centre,  we also allow our awareness to expand to the most southern point of the South Island.

Slowly walking up from the base of the island, we come to Lake Tekapo. This glacial lake is the emotional centre of NZ… Allow yourself to feel the energy in your own belly, your own emotional centre. I invite you to breathe in and allow your emotions and your fears to release and come into balance.. It’s just a choice on the breath.

Breathing consciously still, we walk further north up the South Island heading to the Heart in the Cook Straight.

At the Heart I invite you to breathe and meld fully with self… breathing with your heart centre and also feeling the breath in the heart centre of NZ.

While you have felt the chakras in the land and within self, you may also have become aware that the North Island represents the masculine and the South Island the feminine… similar to the separation created by duality that you have experienced in your life since before physical time began.

In this wonderful time of change, of the divine self coming into the physical, of the shift into the 5^th dimension, we realise that we no longer need to experience separation in any form any more.

Our chakras are blending and coming into the One Chakra and the separation we called duality is also being released as we allow our divine self to integrate with our physical human self and blend together in the dance of total integration of total self-acceptance… the dance of our enlightenment… our ascension. As you release separation and come into the heart… so the county loses its separation of being two islands and becomes one united county.

Breathing consciously, I invite you to feel the energies shifting in the heart of the land. When we created this planet, this land, we planted energies in specific spaces that would come forth at the time humanity would leap into their divine human status/5^th dimensional awareness. These energies would be released only when humanity had brought itself to the vibration of the divine human. Our divine human vibration acts like a key which open the new energies that have been waiting for us since time began… we are now at that vibrational level and the energies over the past week have been coming forth in response to us… not to destroy, not to create fear, but to assist us in our magnificent journey in being all that we are… in being the I AM.

Breathing into this feeling, this awareness…  I invite you now, as you experience yourself ‘standing’ in the heart centre of self and of the land. Can you feel yourself as the ‘key’?

Breathe…. As you recognise yourself as the key opening this new energy expansion, you may feel the energies coming up through the ground like a pillar of light… you are standing in the middle of this pillar of light…

Now, I invite you to also feel the divine energies coming down from the heavens in a similar pillar of light.

Breathe… when the two pillars of light come together, when they meet in your heart centre, there’s and explosion of blended light energies and that new energy shoots out to shine across the whole land and beyond…. Breathe…

By Sue Norman with support from the Lemurian Council.

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Embrace Your Changes

Most relationship conflicts arise simply because one, both or more people in a relationship won’t let the other(s) change. 

Relationships are repeatedly established through need not love. They are generally based upon long term negative energy patterns and emotional games… games that keep one or more persons’ small. One person is usually dominant, controlling, abusive and needs to feed off others. Their ‘victims’ usually display poor me behaviours and allow the pattern to continue. This isn’t to say all relationships are deeply negative, but they usually have some degree of this patterning because it’s the most common and most time tested pattern underlying mass consciousness. In other words, we accept it usually without question because… well, after all, most people do it!

Supporting each other’s self-lacking behaviour is often the bond that keeps people together and not the love they profess to be sharing. Love has no feeding behaviours… love is accepting of self and others for where they are in the moment. They set up elaborate feeding programs so that when one person wants to stop playing and step into their own energy, the other knows how to prevent them. The usual blocking phrase is, “You think you’ve changed!... you haven’t changed a bit”.

That phrase is specifically used to make the victim feel small again. It sets up conflict between what the person is choosing and feeling and what their partner/friend/parent/teacher/colleague is telling them because it’s been human nature to believe others rather than self. The victim will then usually feels deeply saddened that they couldn’t rise above the old views of self, gives their energy away again, and the old game continues. Sometimes the game will change pattern if the feeding is weakened. We have a myriad of designs to keep ourselves in old behavioural patterns.

This behaviour isn’t wrong; it’s just a fact that since time began, people have assisted each other in exploring little human behaviours and patterns in this manner. But, in this time of total new consciousness and acceptance, we are all feeling the deep inner desire to step out of these old confining behaviours and thoughts and step into our divine human status. The beautiful thing is, once you make the choice to step out of these old patterns now, the new energy kicks in and assists you to manifest your choice in ways you couldn’t in the past. The time to embrace change IS NOW!

It takes courage to feel that there’s a different way to live. It takes self-belief to make the choice to change and stay in that change. It takes a strong heart to say “I don’t care if you don’t choose to see who I am now… I don’t care if you can’t see past the past… I can… I am!”

As you shed your old self and release the old patterns, your relationship will change because they can’t continue to create drama with you if you don’t join in. They will either change with you or seek others to join in with their energy games. Losing friends or partners is difficult… but it’s more difficult to stay with them. As I’ve gone through all my changes on my journey to enlightenment many of my relationships have fallen by the way side… only to bring in clearer more loving ones… and many have also changed with me. There’s no more missing out or ‘poor me’ or need to control… you simply release the games and come into self-love… that’s all the ‘energy’ you will ever need to fuel your divine human life.

By Sue Norman with love and honour 

Self-Love

Heart2Heart receive many questions on countless topics. The most common are to do with abundance, relationships, health and the inability to create in the physical the lifestyle they feel in their hearts.

The answer to all these questions is the same… Self-love.

Since we left ‘Home/All that is’ and journeyed through this experience called duality, we’ve looked outside of ourselves to find love, abundance, health, security and just about every other need we ever felt including, abuse, pain, detachment and depression. This outward seeking over the lifetimes has led us on amazing adventures through which we’ve gained extensive awareness of who we/God is/isn’t.

In this awesome time of new consciousness and new energy, we are finally beginning to feel and realise that we have within ourselves, all the answers and capabilities we were previously seeking from outside of self. Everything you need to create and live a grand, expansive, aware and balanced lifestyle is truly within you.

We’ve spent so much of our past looking outward and trusting others beliefs over our own, that it can seem alien to now allow yourself to look within and trust self. It takes time to release the old entrenched behaviours and gain self-trust, but the struggle is lessened as we realise and accept all the new energies are here in this lifetime to assist us in our magnificent transition into our divinehuman status.

I can honestly say from personal experience that when I came into self-love, the partner beyond my dreams came into my life through ways I never expected. When I came into self-love and accepted true abundance, I received my abundance on all levels. When I came into self-love and accepted my body could heal itself and allowed it, my body healed itself. When I came into self-love and let my divine nature dance with my human self, illusions became reality and reality became illusions. When I came into self-love I saw there was no right or wrong, just experience, my judgements fell away and joy danced in its place. When I came into self-love and accepted myself and all people and all things as they are in the now… I found freedom on all levels.

 

The question we usually hear when we share our awareness of self-love is, ‘But, how do I love myself?’

By doing exactly what we were taught by society and religion not to do… to love yourself more than anyone or anything! You must be the most important person in your ‘world’ to change your ‘world’.

Are you feeling any anxious feelings or deep irritations from that statement?... If you are, that’s your past life behaviour patterns of looking outside of yourself throwing a fearful tantrum… asking you not to do it differently, not to be selfish, not to trust this thing called self-love.

In truth, you can’t give anything to anyone else if you don’t first have it within yourself. Self-love is not selfish, it’s selfless. The wonderful side effect of self-love is that you automatically become a ‘Standard’ for humanity and spirit alike. The grand and creative potentials you generate from loving self are the same potentials you place in front of humanity for them to leap into if and when they choose. As more people fall into self-love and radiate out to the world, a domino effect is created allowing the awakening of humanity to occur at a rapid pace.

I could say, ‘Trust me it works!’… but I can only say that to myself… and because I do trust and love myself, I’ve seen situations and people around me go through grand changes in ways I never before thought possible.

I’m not going to sugar coat it, the truth is, moving into self-love is deeply challenging, confusing and heart aching as you begin to let go of who you thought you were. It’s particularly difficult to release the old patterns you have with children and those you love deeply. You feel as if you’re deserting them, as if it’s wrong to love self more than them. These are your great challenges, but in truth as you love self more, you’re allowing yourself to love them beyond the old karmic and ancestral patterns which release them also and gives them new clear potentials to embrace if they choose. Releasing my daughter was the hardest for me. It led to a lot of deep emotional unravelling. In my heart I knew no greater gift to give her than the freedom from old patterns and the awareness of self-love. At times it was difficult to stay in that self-love as I missed having her around… but in my core I knew that if I did, it would benefit her in the grandest ways. Now, with a warm heart, I can say we have a new acceptance in our relationship which continues to expand.

It takes courage to make the choice to be all that you are and step out of the old mass consciousness quagmire. There are many times you feel you want to give in and hide within an old behaviour, addiction or drama. There are times you feel you want to die, and in a sense you do, yet you stay in your body and breathe and transform and emerge like a butterfly with a new expanded awareness of self.

Then there are days you wake up and you can’t put your finger on it, but you know you’ve changed… you feel ‘lighter’, a little hollow, a little unsure. You realise deep within that you’ve stepped through something, released something and you know it’s wonderful even tho you may not be able to understand what it is in your mind. So much of the old illusion of who you thought you were fades and you start to hear a new voice in your heart… your voice. From that moment you realise joy and freedom are now foremost in your feelings rather than the old fears and challenges. From that moment, the challenges are less potent and you find you move past the old issues with very little game-playing or without engaging at all. You also become aware that yes, the universe is supporting you in your choice to be all that you are… and the journey into self continues with more ease and excitement than trepidation.

Self-love is self-acceptance in the now moment... from there, Anything IS Possible!

  

By Sue Norman

Past Life Regression

Question: Do you do past life regressions?... Maria

Answer: No Maria we don’t do past life regressions. It’s not that we couldn’t assist you in regressing, it because we choose not to.

Most people feel they want to regress in order to discover why they have certain behaviours: eg addictions, abusive relationships etc., or fears: eg spiders, heights, commitment etc. Some want to know why they feel an instant attachment to another person or to a place.

In truth, you’ve lived hundreds of lifetimes and the behaviour you look to release may be entrenched and entwined in dozens and dozens of those lives. The search and the unravelling from so many attached lifetimes can be deeply traumatic, lengthy and costly. You can even come up against aspects in those past lives that don’t want to be changed so they hide themselves or create a trickery that can lead to more confusion and intensified trauma. I Have personally assisted many people in releasing the trauma they’ve experienced from undergoing past life regressions and Hypnotherapy.

I sincerely believe, the only truly safe and effective way to release current behaviours and fears, is to deal with them where/when you are experiencing them… in this NOW moment, in THIS lifetime. You are not your past… you are not your future… you are here now!

When you deal with a presenting issue in the now moment, there is no added trauma or lengthy unravelling from numerous past lives to deal with. Also, when you accept, release and heal the issue in the now, that energy flows back through your timelines and literally heals and alters your past. It’s a total release without the trauma or illusion of healing… it’s freedom.

By Sue Norman

If You Knew Then....

How many times have we heard the question, “If you knew then what you know now, would you do it differently?”…. and most of us said willingly, “I wouldn’t change anything!”

The truth is, we say we wouldn’t change anything as a form of comfort for self because we either believed that we needed all the pain and drama to get to this point or we figured there’s no way of ‘going back’ so why torment ourselves with ideas and potentials we perceived as impossible.

Now, as I embrace the full acceptance of self, All that I Am, ascension, enlightenment… whatever tag you’re comfortable with… I realise I Am doing it all again, in this lifetime… differently!

From the space of self-acceptance/self-love, I’m now making choices to live this lifetime totally differently to the little human perspective of who I thought I was! I don’t mean I’m just doing it differently from what I’ve learnt from who I thought I was previously, I mean I’m living my life ‘instead’ of how I chose and created previously.

I’m allowing myself to not only love and experience myself as a divine human, but I’m also allowing myself to unconditionally love others, friends, partner, step children…. I’ve had many friends and lovers previously, but I never allowed myself to really, honestly love them because I didn’t really love myself. I held myself back even when it came to my children… my love and parenting skills were limited by my lack of self-love. Now, I’m releasing the judgement, illusions and games that made me small. In choosing to change my perceptions, actions and consciousness and do it differently in this NOW, I know that this potentially changes the reality for all those people that experienced me as less than all that I am (if they choose).

Let’s face it… everything’s occurring in the now moment… time frames are a human illusion so we can understand experience. If it’s all in the now, you CAN choose to do it differently in the now.

And then, if we take it further and release the illusion of right or wrong, we free ourselves even more and create even grander lifetimes. (Don’t worry you won’t hurt anyone, if you can grasp the concept of no right or wrong, you’re too evolved to create pain or drama anyway).

Why is all this coming up now?… perhaps because my birthday is only a few days away and while I’ve chosen to party and celebrate this occasion, I’m also choosing to release the ‘numbers’ which kept me attached to old aging beliefs and patterns that kept me out of the now and assisted in concealing my true awareness of self.

By Sue Norman

Trust

As I had been having another run in with my dark aspect a couple of weeks ago and having trouble shaking it off again, I asked Adamus to come and breathe with me yesterday which was very grounding and he also gave me some advice that I thought I’d pass on.. not that it isn’t anything we haven’t heard before but the reminder was helpful to me and maybe it is to you too.

He said: can you trust that everything is absolutely perfect just as it is? That it’s all just an experience? ..But I don’t like the experience!.. then choose another one and trust that everything will work out just fine.

It’s not that profound but it made me realise that instead of struggling to release the grip of this aspect, all that was really required was just a change in perception and my attitude, and TRUST that everything will be just fine.

Which brings me to my favourite topic at the moment.. TRUST! For me this is really the crux of what we are doing here, or the ‘secret’ as someone was asking me recently. Trust isn’t just a concept; it is a feeling, an experience. It is being able to so absolutely relax and surrender into yourself because you totally trust that everything is just perfect and in divine order. It is not needing to hold up any energetic walls to protect yourself or to project your energy to force your will. While you are struggling to make your life what you think it should be, you’re not trusting and you’re not allowing the energies to flow, because you’re holding everything in so tightly. As you allow yourself to surrender into you, into life, you allow your energy to naturally expand and be in a state of receiving instead of pushing and blocking.

Can you open to yourself so completely that you have no fear of anything.. even the dark aspects? Can you trust that everything around you is in perfect divine order? Can you trust that YOU are perfect and having just the right experiences for you at this moment? And if you don’t like the experience just choose a different one and TRUST that all will unfold as it should. It is all just a change of perception!

By Natacha Anthoni

My Ascension

Ever since I was a child I kept a diary. I found clarity for what I felt in what I wrote. When I was 33 I had a huge awareness shift that returned me to the path of my spiritual ‘Awakening’. I had fallen from that path about the age of 5 as talking to spirit was frowned upon.

For the past 23 years I’ve continued to write my experiences, but instead of keeping them hidden under my bed, I felt compelled to share them. As I shared my awakening, I found that others related to my experiences and my words assisted them towards their own awakenings.

On the 3rd of September, I had another personal expansion… I ascended in my physical body. I’d known for a few years that I would ascend in this lifetime. I also knew the energies of 2012 would be most suitable for such a shift to come about. Now, I’m being encouraged by both spirit and the few people I’ve shared my ascension with to start writing again and share my experiences, prior to, during and after my ascension.

Firstly I’d like to share some of the insights that I've gained from my personal experience and from chats with Adamus.

Apparently at this stage of our evolution, according to Adamus, there are only about 20 who have ascended in physical body at present... I can see that number expanding quickly before the end of this year.

How did I know I ascended?... I felt such a shift, clarity in my core that simply led me only to one totally obvious knowing... Ascension!... then at the moment of awareness, Adamus was there congratulating me with a warm embrace.

After Adamus's sharing on ‘Freedom’ last Sunday, he and I have had a few chats during which he has suggested that I share with you the experience of my personal ascension in the physical body. 

His reasoning behind this sharing is to assist Shaumbra in particular to recognize just how close they are to the awareness and acceptance of their personal ascension and that it doesn't look anything like what they thought... it's just a natural transition.

Adamus and some other AM's feel that if humans are aware of people they know and trust that have gone through their process, then it will encourage them more, make it more real, than just hearing/feeling it from a dis-embodied spirit through channel! 

There's so much encouragement from spirit at present to awaken to self and slide in on this new energy/new consciousness at this amazing time of transition/expansion. It really is time to just let all the old go and leap... 

The energy had been building over the past weeks since I left Australia... then after 7 weeks away, I went back to see my family and friends, so I thought... I know now I went back to clear the last of the family/ancestral karma and energy games and bring the final aspects home.

Final aspects she says?... yup!!!! So does that mean I don’t play anymore games? It’s curious that for those who ascend out of the physical and totally into self with no other beings around eg, like Adamus, there are no human feelings as such flowing through their ‘fabric’ of self to play games with. I’ve found that ascending in the physical is a little more experiential. While I have no aspect games going on, I’m not alone with myself. I still feel emotions in and around me. I still exist in a world of mass consciousness not the original ascended world of self. So, what I feel are behaviour patterns that might ‘capture’ you for a brief moment, but then because there’s no aspects to play, those behaviour are easily released… its sort of like playing out the final vibrations/echoes around old behaviours. Then when the behaviour is exhausted… it clears totally. There’s just no desire/need to play.

All games were played to gain energy from outside of self or give away energy. I have full awareness/experience now that all I ever need is totally within… not just a mental knowing, but an absolute acceptance and understanding in core levels.

On a physical side, I have a few aches and the occasional physical discomfort as my body acclimatises to ‘housing’ such a new consciousness and energy. I know that will all balance soon enough so I just allow and let them run their course. I feel there are also physical issues that are related to the ‘concepts’ of old behaviour patterns that are naturally and totally releasing themselves.

Because Natacha and I have shared many lifetimes together, my ascension has released any feeding patterns we shared from any of our lifetimes together. The clarity, love, playfulness that we share now has just amped up through the roof! I’ve never experienced such feelings with a partner before… such a deep, open heart connection…. and it just keeps expanding!

It’s amazing to be able to share this depth of self-love with another to the degree that the dance of love between you is felt in every cell and dimension of self. These feelings are also starting to manifest in all we do which is changing our lifestyle noticeably. The children are also making very noticeable shifts just from being in our energy. They are wonderful barometers of where and who we are.

Our home has also gone through changes as it seems after our first workshop we were informed by spirit that we opened a portal of higher learning… and you can feel it. It’s all just expanding bigger and ‘better’ each moment.

Adamus also answered my question/awareness that all the dimension leaping I did with Xena and in the AIPD over the past 2 years was greatly beneficial in bringing me to my ascension!

Currently I'm having fun playing with the illusion of the physical realm and the truth that everything here is our/my creation and the energy can be transformed into anything I choose anytime eg... the bed is not old and a bit uncomfortable, it's now transformed into a very comfortable new bed. It sure is a lot of fun creating with such open clarity.

Last week I gave 6 hours of free energy balancings/healings at the local Spirit Fair. My energy was more expanded than I've previously felt, yet I also felt totally grounded at the same time. My physical body however seemed to struggle with the expansions as the following day I had a few pains in my leg, hip and back joints, perhaps from being on my feet most of the day as well... but my energy remained expanded and grounded.

At one stage I was a little despondent as I knew my energy was somewhat disrupting Natacha especially as we slept. That caused me to feel deeper within to see if there were any old patterns raising their heads... perhaps a few momentarily, but as they have no aspects to play with and no old feeding patterns to rely on, they moved through quickly.

At one stage I felt, 'what is the purpose of ascending in the physical if it's disruptive to others around you?'... I also felt another old behaviour come up of 'It's lonely going through this by myself... again!'... but that release quickly also.

All up I guess it’s not a bad response from my first real day of expanding with the masses since my ascension.  

Something I really enjoy is how much my intuition has 'ammped' up and chatting with the ascended Masters is more common, or I'm more conscious of our chats. Also, lately my hearing and eyesight have begun to improve as the biological rejuvenation kicks in. Most noticeable regarding physical change is that my eyes are shifting in and out of their normal green/grey to very light blue.

Also on a human release, for the past year I've started snoring at night... not something I find comfortable as it affects my throat. I made a choice a couple of days ago to let it go... I then found old breathing patterns recognized from past smoking habits and 'little self' creations of asthma and bronchial issues... the physical asthma and regular bronchitis I released years ago but the breathing habits obviously stayed. On choosing that deeper physical release, the past few nights have been clear of snoring and my throat on waking, not uncomfortable at all. 

For now, I feel fully abundant in every meaning of the word and totally in a space of ‘natural’ creator ability. I have no needs or desires as such and my clarity of ‘seeing’ is just wonderful. Two other points that come to mind are that the process of ascension is no different to perhaps going from primary school to high school. There are no fanfares, levitation, fireworks or grand celebrations that rock the Universe… just a beautiful shift that’s very personal and just is.

Life on all levels and dimensions is bloody fantastic!!!

I would also like to include in these notes, some of the questions I’ve been asked by others and I welcome any other questions you may have.

Question: My biggest challenge is the fear, even though I know it's an illusion. Did you feel fear at that moment?

Sue Norman: I felt many emotions just prior especially since leaving my home town of 56 years and my children, grandchildren, friends, my work and clients... leaving all I thought I was for a new country, a new love, a new me.

Everything was thrown into a type of turmoil, but in doing so I was surprised at how natural it felt. There was no other clear, obvious choice in my heart. Letting go of everything had emotional attachments and there were tears, but tears of release not loss. I knew in my heart it was a time to recognize the emotions for what they were and to choose not be affected/controlled by them... that brought the final aspects 'home'. I stayed in the acceptance of my choice to be all that I am without push or desire. At the actual moment... I felt clear... I felt me... I felt real and yes, free.

Question: We are all thirsty to know, although we are all already ascended but not conscious of it according to me, how you deal with the BIG human issues= Health, money, manifestation of desires and then what new powers opened for you. Can you see spirits all the time now? Do you perceive more colours? Can you pass through walls? 

The last one was a joke.

I have more questions but I'm sure they will be answered either in a form of a blog or a book. For instance, do you feel bored

Sue Norman: How to attain health, money and power?… questions we’ve all wanted answered since… forever! My health isn’t an issue at all as I trust my body to keep finding balance. In the past I learnt to release cancers and asthma with the ease of choice… so I see no issues at all… and that’s my choice. I have manifested my abundance in the past couple of years. It was perfect timing so I could spend this time now just in the experience of ascension without abundance issues or needing to work… and that too was just a choice. I will add I released my abundance issues a few years back when I was on holiday in Bali. In Australia I was on the lower income levels, yet in Bali I was so incredibly rich. The only difference was my perception… so I changed it and my abundance came in. Remember, you can have a truck load of money, but still have abundance issues.

What new powers opened? None really. All that I am just expanded and became obvious. I had it in me the whole time. I just had to realise/remember that.

Do I get bored... no.

I haven't really done any work since being in NZ either. I just love living in the now, feeling the clear, expanded energies, chatting more clearly to spirit, understanding my body's needs and how old behaviours get stuck in a body and gradually come out. I’m just cruising in the now and choosing to be all that I AM. Natacha said this morning that I'm looking younger... I feel younger. I know it’s just a choice to let the biology balance and rejuvenate… so that is my choice. Now I leave that choice to manifest without any need to keep ‘affirming’ it.

Most of all I feel incredible depths of joy, I feel so much love and I seem to melt on the love energy... it’s so sensual.

Question: What’s the most important thing you learn in going into ascension?

Sue Norman: There are several things. Love and acceptance of self and all things as they are, the breath and trust. To ascend I had to go fully into myself, fully accept and love myself. Even tho I had a new loving partner, I focused on going into myself and that’s where I’d find her… never outside of myself. The more love I had for myself the more love I had for her… and everyone and everything else.

I had to leap through all the fears and negative behaviours and beliefs… I had to accept them and choose to do it all differently even when I didn’t know what it would look like… I just trusted. I laughed with myself when I fell into old patterns and let the new in. I had a lot of fun doing things differently and trusting it would all come together and it always did in exciting new ways beyond what my mind could have thought up.

By Sue Norman