Will the Real Me Please Stand Up?

This weekend I gifted myself a weekend away by myself. The school holidays have been very busy and I was feeling run down and shut down and I really wanted some time and space to myself to re-balance.

I found this lovely Bed and Breakfast in Eastbourne which was just perfect with lots of space to myself. I had my own lounge with a view over the harbour, a fireplace and a spa in the garden! I usually shy away from B&B’s because when I want time to myself to rebalance I’m mostly pretty unsociable, but in Eastbourne there are no other options and the bonus was a beautifully prepared breakfast in the morning which took the self-pampering to a whole new level!

It was so blissful to kick back in my own space, to please no-one but myself. Being away from home really allowed me to feel into my own energy and to break away from the various family energy dynamics, and not just for a couple of hours but for a couple of days! Going away from home means there are no temptations to do chores or work, there’s nothing around you to remind you of what needs to be done, giving yourself full permission to totally focus on self and be completely self-full. Time to just breathe, sleep, pamper and love self and just BE! Without any demands on my time I allowed my soul to lead and focused on just what my soul wanted to do or eat.

How much can you allow for yourself? Do you allow nice things into your life or beautiful possessions or do you ‘make do’? Do you allow things to unfold just perfectly or do you self-sabotage your experience by allowing little things to go wrong or irritate you? We know that energy is here to serve us but can you allow yourself to be pampered by someone else?  As you read this, do you find yourself saying ‘yes but..  I’m too busy/ I don’t have the money/ my family needs me..’? These are all ways of affirming that you don’t think you deserve a better experience, and serve to limit your experience. How much are you willing to receive? Every moment is an opportunity to choose what we are willing to receive in our life.

This was a gift to myself because I love myself and for no other reason than that. I don’t need to justify it in anyway by saying I ‘deserve it’ or ‘I need it’, it is just a gift from the heart and what a gift! I will definitely be doing this again!

So much time to myself also allowed me plenty of time to contemplate. Lately I have been focussing on being more ‘real’, but I found myself asking; what is ‘real’, and who is the ‘real’ me?  Is it the things I feel comfortable with, identify with, or aspire to? When I’m at home I’m a Mum, a partner and an Interior Designer, but now I’m away and on my own, all those roles fall away and I found a tendency to want to revert back to who I was before all those things came into my life.  So who is the real me when there are no external expectations or references to shape my experience of myself?

Through completely getting away from it all for a couple of days and spending time with myself, pleasing just me, I rediscovered things that I like and parts of me that I had forgotten. We tend to make compromises in relationships and with the people in our lives and after a while we forget what we used to like and do. But I have been a Mum for 11 years and some-one’s partner for more than 27 years! So were these rediscovered parts of myself the real me or a just a memory, an aspect? And if they are does that make them any less me?

But as I continued to ponder the question of who is the real me, it came to me – it doesn’t matter – these questions are really just musings of the mind wanting to label something; to put it in a box.

I believe the real me is when you leave your head out of it and follow your heart. It’s the things you get excited about, the things that fill your heart with joy, the things your soul wants to do, or just be, I think that’s the real me.. So based on that, the things I’m identifying with this weekend would be the real me because they have brought me great joy!

‘I Am that I Am’ in any given moment and as long as I follow my soul and follow my heart than that is who I am and all I ever need to be!

by Natacha Anthoni

http://www.wellingtonbedandbreakfast.co.nz

Balancing the Masculine and Feminine Within

Visit to Pureora forest March 2014

Recently I spent the weekend with a group in the Pureora Forest Park. The park is one of the largest intact tracts of native forest in the North Island of New Zealand, and is recognized as one of the finest rain forests in the world with an abundance of 1,000 year old podocarp trees. [Wikipedia]

I must admit that originally I was not really that keen to go, it was a long drive to get there with the potential of a few lousy nights sleep in shared bunk room accommodation of a fairly basic hut, and with lots of unknowns pushing the human me well out of its comfort zone. However when I felt into it, my soul-self made it very clear that she REALLY wanted to go, and as I have chosen to lead a soul-led life, the human me relented and we went.

On our first trip into the forest, guided by our Tohunga Matiu Gemmell, we started off visiting the site of a giant Rimu tree, Hine Rakau, said to have been at least 2500 years old but which came down in recent years under tragic circumstances. This tree was the Matriarch in this area and it is believed that when she came down, the knowledge and energy she held was passed to the nearby younger, but still very significant trees.

As we walked on I noted how still the forest was. There was only a slight breeze and hardly any bird noise.  A little further we stopped at a stand of magnificent trees, now believed to be the knowledge carriers in this area, and the group dispersed to spend some quiet time here. I sat at the base of one of the large trees and breathed and felt into myself and the tree but soon my quiet contemplation was disrupted by a huge racket of bird noise a little way off. I tried to focus on my breathing but kept being distracted by the birds. Why were the birds suddenly so noisy and where was all this noise coming from? The noise was so distracting it was like they were actually trying to get my attention.. calling me.  I looked in the direction of all the noise and glimpsed a huge tree in the distance that seemed to be the source of all the bird euphoria. My quiet contemplation disrupted and my interest piqued, I walked over to the tree and confirmed that it was indeed the source of all the bird twitter. There were actually two giant Rimu trees standing close to each other, one larger than the other and, as I sat and breathed under the larger of the two trees, all the birds slowly disappeared till the forest was quiet once again. It really was as if they had been there just to call me over to this tree, and what a tree! The energy of it was magnificent and resonated deeply with me.

In my quiet contemplation I was considering the balance of the Masculine and feminine within myself. Throughout most of my life I have felt myself more balanced towards the masculine than the feminine. I grew up on a farm, I excelled at Maths and physics and I studied Civil Engineering at University which meant that I spent a lot of my younger years in the company of guys, and I found them easier to relate to than women.

In my later years as I walked this journey of self-discovery, I became aware of this imbalance, and worked on conscious addressing it by allowing myself to express more of my feminine self, and over time, and with great joy I released more of my inner Goddess. However a couple of years ago I started a relationship with Sue which, subconsciously for me, upset the masculine/ feminine balance in my life. In my previous relationship, my husband provided a strong masculine presence in my life, leaving me feeling safe to explore more of my feminine side. However now, in a relationship with a woman, that balance and safe space had been disturbed and I retreated back to my masculine side, feeling the need to be ‘the strong one’ while Sue was still finding her feet in a new country, and  somehow believing this was needed to balance out a relationship with another woman. But I knew this didn't feel right, I could feel the imbalance and I missed the more feminine aspects of me.

So I sat with this beautiful tree and asked how I could readdress this imbalance I felt within, the awareness that washed through me was that to balance the masculine aspect of ourselves you cannot just express more of the feminine aspect but you need to go deeper into the masculine itself and find balance just within the masculine, and same within the feminine separately. Previously I’d always thought that balancing the masculine and feminine within was a bit like mixing hot and cold water, if it’s too cold you add more hot water till the balance feels right and similarly if there was a perceived imbalance towards the masculine, this could be addressed by allowing more of the feminine to express itself. And maybe this is still true to some respect, but I now see that it is not possible to really balance the masculine by turning your back on it and turning to the feminine. The masculine is an entity of its own that needs to find balance and acceptance on its own by going deeper within and finding the love and acceptance of this part of us, and not by denying it.

The same holds true for finding the balance between the light and the dark within ourselves. Each part of us must find balance on its own. You cannot hope to find balance by turning your back on the dark and only embracing the light. This would be denying and separating yourself from a part of who you are. Instead you need to go deeper into the dark and find the love and acceptance within.

Later Aroha, one of the women in our group, said this place is known as a ‘doorway’, and the two trees, male and female, as the ‘Gates of Heaven’! Afterwards I also realized that this was of course not a conversation I was having with the tree but it was my own wisdom that I was able to bring forth at this time. The tree merely provided the space and support whereby I could hear my own soul voice more clearly.  Since the energy and knowledge of Hine Rakau is now shared among several trees, I believe there is a different tree there for everyone now, and it’s just a matter of finding the one that you resonate with. I certainly found mine.

Whether it was my choice to find a greater balance within or if it was just spending a couple of days breathing with these magnificent trees, something has certainly shifted in me  and I have been enjoying the most  amazing heart opening and shift deeper into self-love ever since. It was a truly amazing weekend on many levels. Thank you to all those who were a part of it.

By Natacha Anthoni

DO YOU FEEL SAFE IN YOUR ABUNDANCE?... SUE’S CLUES!

This is an area that even tho’ I’ve played with having ’just enough’ in the past, I’ve also created abundantly at times when I’ve been passionate about having or achieving something.

Since I was a child, because my parents played the ‘struggle with abundance’ game, I often wanted to create something beyond that old family belief.

I began consciously creating at about 5 years old when I saw an ice-cream cake that was being raffled for Christmas. It was so unbelievably beautiful and huge, that something inside me instantly claimed it as mine. There was no way I’d let Mum leave the shop without giving me the money to buy a ticket  for myself…

It was the best Christmas lunch ever!!!

From then, over the next few years, I won all manner of things that delighted my child-self from a giant teddy bear to games and show tickets. As a teenager I continued to win things that suited my age then such as a record player, camera, tape deck and a trip to Melbourne as a guest for the glamorous TV Logie awards… I sooo chose that one big time!

The constant motivation here wasn’t just winning stuff… it was being able to own things I truly desired, but was constantly told by my parents that ‘we’ couldn’t afford.

As a young adult, I married into the same ‘struggle with abundance’ mentality I had with my parents. However, I didn’t let it totally drag me down,  I just continued to manifest  things I wanted that I was told by my husband that we couldn’t afford. Having a family changed the type of ‘wins’ I became passionate about. I then won holiday packages to the snow, toys for the kids and new to my creative skills… cash!

When the children grew up and I divorced my husband, winning/receiving cash became my preferred form of gaining abundance as it allowed me to go to more places and explore more delights than if I won ‘something’ that was up for offer. It also allowed me to work only when I chose. I became a ‘more aware’ Master at creating my abundance as I knew more intuitively from within what I was actually choosing rather than needing to see something physically dangling in front of me or choosing something because I was told I couldn’t have it.

The cash came in so many different forms…  often in totally unexpected ways and always timely.

I now live with a partner who chooses as I do to live grandly. No more being told I can’t afford something or playing deeply in the old ‘lack’ game.  There are still moments of ‘concern’ when the little human self can’t quite accept the ‘feeling safe in abundance’ concept even tho’ it’s been witness to the actions so often through my life… but my Self doesn’t get lost there… my Self-breathes with the trust… and my abundance is still growing…

The Crimson Circle have just obtained the abundance for a much desired place to call ‘Home’ for their studio and meeting space. This abundance came in soon after they felt a huge loss of abundance. Adamus asked them to trust and allow Shaumbra to create this space… to create the abundance. There was never a doubt in my mind what was going to occur.

When you make a choice to create and allow it to occur… to trust it to occur, the waves of energy from all the appropriate sources gather together and the creation is born into the physical.  In this case, Shaumbra’s choices to create together were all the appropriate sources of energy and when we came together in the moment, in clear conscious choice… it all came together. This is why Adamus gave us a short time frame, long enough for some to question but not too long that the energy would close in from questioning. This is also why he asked us not to verbalise about the choice to donate… not to put a creation limiting ‘but’ into the creation pool. It didn’t matter if you did or didn’t donate… it only mattered that the energy was consciously clear.

This form of creating isn’t new. I’ve used it many times… it’s the creative art of gratefully allowing others to donate to my lottery wins, my casino wins, my raffle wins… so I could consciously, clearly choose to win it to create my next experience… because I AM safe in my abundance…

  

I wrote this simple sharing to place awareness ‘out there’ for those who don’t feel so safe in their abundance… can you see the clues?… can you see the ‘challenge’... can you see the fun?

Enjoy whatever you choose. :D

Sue Norman

Allowing the Adventure

I had a wonderful experience while I slept last night… It wasn’t a dream.

I was walking home along a narrow country road that followed the shoreline of the ocean. As I came to a small wooden bridge, an earthquake measuring 7.2 shook everything around me. Living in New Zealand these past 18 months I’m rather used to earthquakes now and the energy they shift.  I just smiled, went with the vibration and soon all was still again.

My attention was then drawn to the ocean… I watched with awareness as the tide was racing backwards. Conscious that a Tsunami was brewing, I confidently, effortlessly started climbing up the hillside.

As I climbed I rang Natacha to let her know what was occurring so she could seek higher ground with the children. There was no warning or fear in my message… just allowing.

I continued climbing upward with ease. I wandered through the front gates of several homes and over their back fences as I continued upwards. At one time I looked back to see the water as it started to flow back to the shore. It moved toward the land with great speed and tall waves. I was fascinated by
its movement… the breathing out and the breathing in. I felt no drama, no emotion, just acceptance as I continued my steady climb.

After ascending a little more I rang my daughter for no other reason than to share my experience. Kristy decided to drive over and meet me. She purposefully brought my oldest Granddaughter, Summer with her. Summer and I have had a unique relationship even before her physical birth 4 years ago. We ‘know’ each other clearly.

Kris quite contently left Summer with me as she knew there was something we were both choosing to experience. As she drove away, Summer and I began climbing upwards together.We didn’t talk at all we  just kept climbing effortlessly and with a certain amount of joy and sense of freedom.

The homes and farms and shops we climbed over and around were clear and real… our senses were quite open to feeling everything around us…. not like a dream at all. One home we walked through had hundreds of crystals in the back yard… but they were all man made and held no interest for us. The people we met were interesting, but no-one journey with us.

The water level continued rising quickly behind us as we came near the top of the hill. Eventually, still with no effort, we reach the peak and built on the top was an old shopping complex made of stone buildings joined together.  We wandered through the shops looking at all the wares from food to antiques and listened to the people panicking and regretting. We were aware of so many stories, beliefs and fears flying around us, yet we just continued on unaffected by it all.

As the waters were almost lapping at our toes, Summer and I climbed up to the highest point on the roof of the shops. From there we saw a huge old pine tree rising up towering above the buildings. It overshadowed all the other trees.  Summer and I climbed on to it from the roof and ascended effortlessly to the top.

The view of the expansive ‘ocean’ surrounding us was amazing! Everything within sight slowly vanished in the rising waters until there was nothing but ocean and the top of our tree.

Realising the waters were still rising, I quietly said to myself, ‘Enough’.

Immediately the waters became calm and the level balanced.

For a while Summer and I enjoyed the feelings of our unique, clear space and when the experience was full, a helicopter flew over to us … piloted by…  Adamus St. Germain. 

Sometimes I find that by sharing an experience others become more aware of their own expereinces... dreams or not.

By Sue Norman  2-2-2014

Awakening Castle Hill… Awakening Self

Sue’s Perspective

THE CALL

From the moment Natacha and I chose to go to Castle Hill, many energies came into play that made us realise we were to put out an invitation for others to join us. Eleven people from around New Zealand also felt the call and responded almost immediately.

For the several weeks before our physical journey began, the energetic journey was well under way. Information on a human and divine level came to us constantly through books, channelled art, toning/songs from Waitaha and conscious inner self-awareness.

The core of the information was that it was time to release separation on all levels (masculine and feminine, light and dark etc.), accept all things as they are and embrace self-love in the now moment. Through the total acceptance of self and all things, one comes into the new consciousness and creates the new energy by which they manifest their grander choices. It’s the vibration of the new consciousness that resonates with the energy of Castle Hill and creates an unlocking effect that allows the portal of higher learning that is embodied in the stone structures to flow forth. This energy was placed within this space at the time of creation by us for us. We knew we would open it at the appropriate time, the time when our levels of consciousness, the key, matched the levels required to ‘open the lock’ to shift humanity and the 3^rd dimensional world into the 5^th dimension.

When people open portals it’s usual to close them again behind them, however in this case, it’s time for the portal at Castle Hill to now stay open. This stream of energy flowing across the world will touch each person and wait patiently for each to feel it, embrace it and activate it as they each awaken and step into their enlightenment.

THE JOURNEY

Our physical journey began on Friday 8^th of November 2013. Natacha and I arrived early morning at the Wellington Airport to catch our flight to Castle Hill. Soon after we arrived, we realised all flights were delayed due to heavy fog. I chose not to be caught or play in such potentials as we were committed to our journey. We breathed and allowed. The fog cleared just long enough for the circling plane to land and take off again with us on it.

On arrival at Christchurch we met up with 3 others who had flown from Auckland and Hamilton. Soon after, we began receiving calls that the other 8 members were fogged in at Wellington and flights were cancelled for the rest of the day. After several phone calls, the 8 managed to get in contact with each other (most hadn’t met prior to this journey) and re-organise themselves. Four stayed at the airport on standby and by late afternoon created flights. The other 4 chose to wait until morning.

It was interesting to feel the energies all starting to come together and intensify as each group gradually arrived at Castle Hill. The first weary 4 came in late on the Friday evening and the final 4 arrived at midday on the Saturday. We all finally came together quite intuitively on the Saturday (as there was no mobile signal) at the area known as ‘The Marae’ (the meeting place).

It was wonderful to hear all their stories of how the fog had opened them up in various ways to grander personal awareness and that there were no feelings of frustration or ‘too hard’… just acceptance and allowing their higher choice to manifest.  I felt very honoured to be in the company of such remarkable people. Each person found something within themselves to assist them through this challenge

EXPERIENCING CASTLE HILL

As I mentioned before, our sharing with Castle Hill began when we first made the choice to be there. That sharing intensified greatly as we drove towards our destination and physically saw for the first time in the distance, the unique stone monoliths standing proudly along the ridge of Castle Hill. My  heart leapt as I felt my energies rise, lighten and intensify all at the same time.

We parked the car and excitedly headed up the path towards the energetically carved sculptures. Two beautiful trees stood proudly by the path. They resembled Guardians. As I approached the first one, I was stopped by the presence and asked why I was there. I honoured the guardians and replied that I was on a journey of the heart… they were satisfied and I felt their welcome wash over me. I was then asked why the others were there and I replied they would have to ask them. I felt a playful energy run through me.

I’m not sure it would be possible to share through words all that was experienced over the 3 days at Castle Hill. The intense feelings of peace, comfort, belonging and joy were very obvious to us all. I felt very nurtured and centred within myself. We were also very aware that we were surrounded and guided by spirit at every turn. Each rock and boulder that we sat next to, laid on and shared with seemed to have its own unique vibration and story to impart. There were totems to guide us and images to spark our imaginations and awareness at each turn. One rock had grasses growing on it in the shape of my golden pendant that I had made especially for me a few years ago to signify balance. There was a formation that resembled Quan Yin where I experienced such a depth of self-love and compassion. There were sticks and rock formations in the shape of snakes and serpents that caught my eye constantly, a symbol close to my heart. I found it delightful that when I actually found a large heart shaped rock to lay on and when I looked around, it was next to a large, long rock shaped as a serpent. We shared a great deal on awakening and transformation.

Even the passing cloud formations seem to be sharing stories and potentials with us as the sun and the wind shaped then and gave them added dimensions. Every experience was enhanced even more by the constant and delightful song of the Sky Lark. As it flew high into the air in full song you could feel the shift of energies spiralling around it and within self as it led you from one experience/awakening to another.

While the lower areas of Castle Hill, held so much to experience and were relatively easy to climb around, it was the formations up the hillside and across the ridge that called to many of us very strongly. The area along the ridge is said to be the place of higher learning and when one felt ready they would make that journey. The climb was steep and demanding. At regular intervals there were large stones which emanated various energies that could be tapped into. In a way they resembled chakras and our journey took us from the base chakra to the crown chakras and the expanded knowledge. Each of these chakra stones offered a specific energy and rest spot for you to reflect on your climb in the quest for higher learning.  

While I felt various energies and minor shifts from the various rocks on our climb, it was the heart chakra stone that had the greatest affect. As soon as I sat down next to it, I felt my heart pounding beyond the intensity from the climb. It was a penetrating and very physical feeling which was extremely uncomfortable. After about 10 minutes of breathing, the sensation lessened and I realised I’d had a heart opening. It was like spiritual surgery that opened and strengthened my heart on all levels.  

Once we reached the ridge, the energy changed again. For me it was like breathing in in a whole new way. The tiredness of the climb fell away as I took everything in. The view in all directions was so beautiful, but it’s not what had my attention. Actually I’m not sure anything did… it was more like I was just a part of the whole space… of everything. Nothing was individual or separate. I remembered back to what spirit had said the underlying motivation of this journey was before we left… it was to release the separation and to embrace acceptance of all things.

In a way, walking around and feeling into and sharing with all the rocks on the ridge of castle Hill was like coming Home… the journey back to self… remembering the truth of self.

The higher learning that was there to be accepted/opened is the acceptance of the truth of you. Once you accept self, you can then accept all things and all peoples as they are. It’s in the release of separation and judgement and through the acceptance of all things that balance comes to all of Creation. As that balance is felt, you and All That Is expand into the new consciousness.

THE JOURNEY CONTINUES WITHIN

It’s been 3 weeks since we left Castle Hill. I’ve not written about the trip until now because the experience is still creating shifts within and grand changes are flowing into my life on all levels. I’m very consciously aware that a much deeper, clearer ‘knowing’ has awakened within me. I’ve always been one to consciously expand myself and release limitations as they appear… but what I feel now is so much deeper. My senses both human and divine have expanded and when I breathe I truly feel all things are open to me with no limitation, I truly feel that I AM THAT IAM.

The Soul and the Human

This morning was a glorious, sunny winters day and I felt the deep inner desire to go for a walk and breathe with myself. Sometimes I get a bit slack with my conscious breathing as life is filled with so much to experience.  A sure sign I need to slow down and be with self is feeling soreness in my knees… they say ‘Slow down and be with self’… finally I listened.

When I breathed into where I would wander, I immediately felt it would be Zealandia. Zealandia is an amazing wildlife sanctuary just 5 minutes’ drive from my home where you can see some of New Zealand's rarest birds, reptiles and insects living wild in their natural environment.

I sat on a small wooden bridge the rainforest section of the valley. My feet dangled just inches from the clear bubbling stream.  I was surrounded by tree ferns and a variety of smaller ferns and soft moss and lichen. The trees above were filled with birds singing and flitting around catching insects. Their songs complimented the bubbling stream. The only other sound I was aware of was my conscious breath. This is my most favourite of all spaces to be in and I’m so over joyed I created it in my life.

As I breathed, I felt such peace. I felt so connected to myself… so much so that I became very conscious of a conversation going on between my soul self and my human self. My soul, in all it’s playfulness and little or no understanding of human needs or comforts, wanted to jump into the stream and follow it on it’s journey. My human self was much more ‘sensible’ and reserved.

“You don’t know what cold is do you?” said my human self. “No way are you getting me in that freezing water. I’d have to walk all the way back to the car dripping wet!”

I could feel my soul wanting the experience so much that I nearly leapt in, yet the human stood it’s ground.

Then soul looked through the ferns and saw the tall trees. It wanted to climb them.

“Do you know how difficult and exhausting it would be to climb those old pine trees? There are no lower branches to start with.” said the human self.

I found the conversations amusing. The soul was like the fearless child and the human was the fear burdened parent.

The soul soon lost interest in the trees, not because of the practical human self, but because its attention had shifted to the birds… to flying!

Interestingly, the human self had no qualms about flying and put up no argument. It too would love the experience. When I’ve had flying dreams in the past, I was always upset when I woke and realised it wasn’t real… it felt soooo real.

As a compromise, soul and human agreed to imagine the experience together. It was so beautiful! A true blending of soul and human self’s such as I’ve never consciously experienced before. I could feel the sensation of flight. It was even more real than my dreams.  I could also feel a deeper shift and self-acceptance and self-awareness. I could feel the unconditional self-love on so many more levels.

Eventually, I came ‘back’ from my experience and I wandered a little further upstream still feeling the joy of my flight. I came across another small bridge. I breathed into my core and into my joy. I then found myself feeling into the past 2 weeks. Something had happened that had brought me more into myself. Something had happened that had deepened my love for Natacha. Something had happened that had caused me to embrace my expanded family even more. Something had happened that had me more deeply aware of my journey of choice. Something had happened that had me falling deeper into love and gratitude of all things…

Just as I was feeling into all this ‘something’… it struck me… the earthquakes! The reason so much has changed is due to all the releasing energies coming up from Gaia... not just releasing the stuck energies but more awesomely, she was releasing all the new consciousness energy that had been stored away from the beginning of time just waiting for humanity to reach this time of new expanded consciousness. It’s been 13 days since the first quake. We’ve been getting on average around 30 a day in varying degrees since then. They’re all centred in the Cook Straight where Natacha and I know the 'Heart' of New Zealand resides and it’s only 10-20 kms from us in Wellington. Wellington is the capital of NZ and the governing centre of the land. If there’s stuff to be released and changed, the country's capital is a good place to do it.

These earthquakes are creating such amazing shifts on so many levels and they are occurring with very little damage even from the big ones. We know this shift can be graceful and gentle. Nothing needs to be destructive any more. Ease and grace is the way in this new consciousness.

With so much shaking, nothing feels solid or ridged anymore... it's all becoming flexible... within Gaia and within self.  It's all quite exciting when you relate how the earth changes are affected by you and how the earth changes affect you... an amazing dance of energies heralding a new change of consciousness, of energy and all that is.

Soon after this awareness came up, the little bridge I was standing on began to move and shake under my feet. I could feel the energy of yet another earthquake... it was a strong one, 4.9, yet it had a gentleness about it. It was almost as if it was acknowledging my new awareness. It’s amazing how something like an earthquake which usually ignites fear into the human, is seen as a gift when the soul and the human blend and dance with self-acceptance.

Today is a wonderful day.

By Sue Norman

   Journey into Self: New Zealand ‘Quake’ Meditation 

This meditation was created to assist awareness of this land and its relationship to the self as we are experiencing huge and wonderful shifts together at this time of the new consciousness and new energy integration and expansion.

Since sharing this meditation in our group last night, for the first time in 7 days of continual quake activity (every 10 minutes for most of the past days) today has had very few minor readings and none now for the past 6 hours.

In this visualization we liken the journey of travelling up and down NZ to a journey up and down our own physical self…. chakra to chakra. We also recognise our state of separation which we know as the masculine/feminine, yin/yang, positive/negative, duality in the land and in the self.

I invite you to breathe… breathe long, lovingly and deeply into your belly… into your core… allow yourself to slowly meld and melt into self.

We begin our journey at the furthest point in the North Island… at Cape Reinga… Imagine yourself at the Cape… the crown chakra of NZ, while at the same time feeling it in your own crown…

Slowly we move south to Lake Taupo… this area is seen/ felt as the country’s throat chakra… an energy centre of communication… a volcanic and thermal lake…. I invite you to feel this space in your own throat… feel the activity… feel your voice and truth come forth.

Continuing our walk, we wander down to the bottom of the South Island and into the heart centre in the middle of the Cook Straight…  still breathing and feeling the journey in our own physical bodies.

Take another deep conscious breath… while part of our energies stay in the Heart centre,  we also allow our awareness to expand to the most southern point of the South Island.

Slowly walking up from the base of the island, we come to Lake Tekapo. This glacial lake is the emotional centre of NZ… Allow yourself to feel the energy in your own belly, your own emotional centre. I invite you to breathe in and allow your emotions and your fears to release and come into balance.. It’s just a choice on the breath.

Breathing consciously still, we walk further north up the South Island heading to the Heart in the Cook Straight.

At the Heart I invite you to breathe and meld fully with self… breathing with your heart centre and also feeling the breath in the heart centre of NZ.

While you have felt the chakras in the land and within self, you may also have become aware that the North Island represents the masculine and the South Island the feminine… similar to the separation created by duality that you have experienced in your life since before physical time began.

In this wonderful time of change, of the divine self coming into the physical, of the shift into the 5^th dimension, we realise that we no longer need to experience separation in any form any more.

Our chakras are blending and coming into the One Chakra and the separation we called duality is also being released as we allow our divine self to integrate with our physical human self and blend together in the dance of total integration of total self-acceptance… the dance of our enlightenment… our ascension. As you release separation and come into the heart… so the county loses its separation of being two islands and becomes one united county.

Breathing consciously, I invite you to feel the energies shifting in the heart of the land. When we created this planet, this land, we planted energies in specific spaces that would come forth at the time humanity would leap into their divine human status/5^th dimensional awareness. These energies would be released only when humanity had brought itself to the vibration of the divine human. Our divine human vibration acts like a key which open the new energies that have been waiting for us since time began… we are now at that vibrational level and the energies over the past week have been coming forth in response to us… not to destroy, not to create fear, but to assist us in our magnificent journey in being all that we are… in being the I AM.

Breathing into this feeling, this awareness…  I invite you now, as you experience yourself ‘standing’ in the heart centre of self and of the land. Can you feel yourself as the ‘key’?

Breathe…. As you recognise yourself as the key opening this new energy expansion, you may feel the energies coming up through the ground like a pillar of light… you are standing in the middle of this pillar of light…

Now, I invite you to also feel the divine energies coming down from the heavens in a similar pillar of light.

Breathe… when the two pillars of light come together, when they meet in your heart centre, there’s and explosion of blended light energies and that new energy shoots out to shine across the whole land and beyond…. Breathe…

By Sue Norman with support from the Lemurian Council.

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